An extension of yesterday

I figured out some more things. My musical influences are too important for me to try to recreate.

I have great admiration for so many artists, and I feel myself refer to their influence often in my own work. But it doesn’t feel good anymore to approach my own creative projects trying to replicate their work. Something in me feels off when I do that, and I feel insecure. I think I feel this way, because it’s dishonest! (Maybe.) I’m excited about the NEW and exploration for myself! I only want to do art for myself, even though it’s fun to share afterwards. All my favorite artists have achieved something interesting to me by taking risks and being committed to their own direction! That is what I’m inspired by. When I approach a project by trying to do what others have already mastered, I expose myself to crazy self-judgement. Because I am never going to make a better version of their work. I value their work too much. So again, instead of being hung up on the surface level aspects of another artist’s work, I am more inspired by their commitment to their own curiosity and exploration! Honest art. It doesn’t feel good to try to be someone else. I don’t know who I am, but I know I’m not them. And making my own art helps me understand who I currently am.

Here is my drawing from this morning.